I liked this blog assignment as it was just the question of reflecting upon a prior experience which I will attempt to do in the following words. A time in my life where I found myself drastically changing my identity kit was when I changed schools sophomore year of high school. I was absolutely petrified at the thought of attending a new school and not knowing a single person and not knowing the "right" way to do things. When I started at my new school I completely changed my behavior. Before, I was rather obnoxious in classes and seen as a class clown figure and outgoing and all that other extrovertism jazz in my old school, and now at my new school I was quiet and reserved and walked through the hallways trying to be undetected. I noticed this that I was not acting like my true self due to the lack of complacent belonging in the new environment. I was trying to keep a low profile in an effort not to give people the wrong idea about me or have a negative opinion of me. I went along with this "mushfaking" for a portion of the first semester until I found the right fit and the correct behavior that my peers would deem acceptable. I slowly but surely maneuvered back into my old self, but this new persona was an altered version of the original. This new version still had the same personality and tenancies, but now I was more mature and not so obnoxious. One's identity kit is a very important thing as it is the persona of the person. Mushfaking can be a good or bad thing depending on how the person is altering their behavior. In my personal experience, this mushfaking proved to be a positive choice to make as I learned how to adapt to my new environment before just jumping into the picture and not changing anything at all.
Your Fellow Blogger,
Kina Bramlette
Hey Kina, I can definitely relate to your situation even though I never switched high schools. Its always hard to go into something not knowing anybody, and I would also probably try to fly under the radar, at least at first. Similar to what I was like when I came to SDSU. Its cool that you were able to return to old form as a result of your mushfaking, especially if that form is new and improved. I think we all go through life facing experiences kind of like this, and that's how we continue to grow as people.
ReplyDelete-Sam Spoden
Hi Kina,
ReplyDeleteLike Sam, I relate with your experience 100%. I didn't switch high schools either but the attitude that you mentioned you had sounds like my attitude when I was in high school. I was loud, obnoxious, and annoying (not saying that you were annoying lol) in high school but once I started going to SDSU I was completely quiet and kept a low profile because I hated getting so much negative attention. I was the complete polar opposite but I ended up getting negative attention that way anyway -___- People just thought I was boring and antisocial. Funny how it all works right?
Eventually, I learned that finding a good balance between school and social life and meeting the right people was all it took to become the person that I wanted to be. It all takes time and patience because change just doesn't happen overnight, good change at least. (:
-Selena Mae